Everything is changing in my life lately.

To start things off, I'll say that I am back to being a vegetarian. It's what makes me happy; above a lot of things. I'll feel great, I'll start to look great again... all in all, it's just something I need to do. To accompany this I plan to keep up kickboxing and exercising the way I was before Christmas Break. I binged pretty hard over the holidays, but now that they're over and the Christmas decorations have made their way back up onto the shelf so have my loose boundaries and willpower.

Secondly, I'm trying to deal with something pretty big. My parents got separated before Christmas and I was told on the 21st. It's still really hard to believe but after my, "I can handle this... no big deal, right?" phase, I'm starting to realize that this is going to be really difficult. I miss having my dad here. He doesn't live with us anymore... SO yeah. That's another little piece of my puzzle. It adds to more problems, but I'll deal with them when I get back to school.

Lastly, I'm starting to worry about myself a bit. My morals are pretty much packing up and heading south for the winter... I'm thinking of trying things and doing things I never would have before. Perhaps it's simply my teenage side taking over and making up for lost rebellious years, but even then... I shouldn't be considering some of the things I have been, lately. I feel like acting out; proving myself in any way I possibly can. Without limits. I feel fierce and haughty most of the time. Like, the type of mood that says, "I want to walk down a fashion runway with the most sly, rebellious look on my face," or the "Let's go get drunk and party." I've never been a partier so this is all weird. It's more the first thought, though. Maybe I really DO want to pursue modeling... who knows.

Who DOES know?